Here’s the thing. I feel like someone is going to come and take her because I can not fathom turning your back on a child. Her grandparents? Why haven’t they stepped in and taken her yet? I mean months and months and months ago when she was taken into custody? I can not for the life of me wrap my head around it. And that is making this hard on me. It is making the fear stick around and gnaw at me.
Here’s the other thing. How does one resume “normal” intimacy after back to back miscarriages, then 2 six week periods with only a one week break in between, and then suddenly bringing home an almost one year old?
Husband and I have been getting along so well, but I know that he is frustrated with me. I can not help what the ENDO does to my body. I can not help that I had 2 miscarriages in five months time, not to mention all the crap that IVF puts your body through. I can not help that when he acts like an asshole because of it that turns off any type of “want” I might be feeling. It’s like he has an idea, I’m looking at reality, and we need to find somewhere to meet in the middle.
How do you guys do it?