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Aloha!

Wow. It has been ages since I have been on and I have missed my blogging friends. But lemme tell ya, a week of in Maui is just what the doctor ordered. But, as the world continues to go round even when you are taking a break, things still happened here. I came back to total chaos! Whens my next vacation?! it was so nice to not be a part of reality. I ate whatever I wanted. (To the great detriment of my obvious gluten intolerance. Hello bloating!) I drank mimosa’s for breakfast and had wine with dinner and napped and was in bed by 10pm every night. I layed out by the pool and on the beach and rode in a submarine and snorkled with giant sea turtles. And it couldn’t have been better.

Let’s see…On the fertility front…

The only thing that bothered me in Hawaii was that I’m not pregnant. When we made the plans, I was. And we were planning for me to be going into my 4th month on the trip. I didn’t think going would effect me how it did. But it did. That old familiar friend, the feeling of loss, decided to come along. I tried hard to shake him, and for the most part I did. There were just a few times that I couldn’t get him off my tail. See? It’s a fact that infertility clouds your judgement and makes you delusional. Who in thier right mind would be sad about not being pregnant in Hawaii for goodness sake?

My first day back, after not getting home until 1am (and spending all day either on a plane or in a car) I had to drag my butt out of bed and head down, an hour away, for my SHG. Luckily, it wasn’t as horrid as I expected it to be. Quick and easy. Ok, the fact that I slipped myself a vicodin a half an hour before may have helped, but hey. I was tired, cranky, and not in the mood for pain.

The good news is, my SHG was clear. No scarring, no polyps, no fibroids. Just one beautiful uterine cavity waiting to house a fetus.

Next step: FET consult appointment to get calendar and prescriptions. 2 Grade AA, lovely little embryos, just waiting for a home.

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About Tricia #GrowingUpNelson

First grandaughter, mother of two, lover of books and bad music, aspiring to be a mostly vegan always vegetarian. Nearly 365 days Xanax free and hating it. #GrowingUpNelson

6 responses »

  1. Giant sea turtles? How awesome!!

    You know we understand how it is to be sad not to be pregnant somewhere, even Hawaii.

    I’m glad for good news from your SHG!

    Welcome home!!

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  2. I can understand why you’d feel sad even in Hawaii. I find that I feel sad when I revisit places for the first time since I became “unpregnant” or see people for the first time since. It brings up the feelings of loss again. ((HUGS)) Good luck with the next step!

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    • I do that ALL the time..the last time I was here, the last time I saw that person…ugh, its getting to be less and less that it happens though, I guess as time goes on. You guys are great for understanding tho.

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  3. And you were missed, too! I think sad is ok. I have never lost a baby, but I do find myself unbelievably sad at certain times when I am reminded of an unrealistic “be pregnant now” deadline I set in the past. I try to let the sad run it’s course and hope that after enough sads I can find happy again.

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